Well, this is my first blog, hopefully i can keep it updated when im feeling sad or feeling down, which happens more often than not, mostly during examination periods or result periods. I’ve been thinking about starting my very own blog, not for money or fame and all that nonsense, but to just type how i feel and what im thinking about. I never had a friend who really understands what is going on in my head, much less knows whats on my mind, unless its about gaming.
Gaming….. My 2nd best thing to do, well I’ll rate it at 1st, but life’s at 1st so gaming has no choice but to go 2nd. Well, the game im really into at the moment happens to be Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare. Its by Activision and made by Infinity Ward. Frankly, i think this FPS owns CS 100% cause its just more realistic and without all that bullshitty “AWP Camping” Im also in a clan with a few friends of mine, and we call our clan [Riot].
*EHEM* Excuse my language as i now go puke for thinking about CS.
Back to life, my “No 1 Favourite” thing in the whole wide fucking world. *Cough* Did i just swear? I think i did. Screw it, seriously who cares if i swear on a public blog thats about my pathetic life, on the bloody internet with 9883234242424420789 other people rambling on about the same thing.
I got my results back in about 2 weeks ago, with 2 E’s, 1F and 1 D+. “Well thats fucked up” i said to myself as i looked at my results with horror and sadness. And feeling like i could chop some guy’s head off for getting such a poor result. I mean chop, in literary sense by the way, none of that massacre nonsense. I failed my Cisco 2, meaning i have to retake that god damn subject, which i hope i didn’t have to cause it isn’t offered this semester. Then i had to resit for 2 more subjects which are Server Management and Computer Forensics.
And today i finally managed to check my Server Management results to find out if i passed it or not and, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD , i phailed. Fucking pissed at myself i was. And im recalling this on the very same day im writing this down. Doesn’t life suck sometimes? Wish god or someone just kill me before i commit suicide. Now my hope lies on Computer Forensics which i hope i fucking pass, if not im gonna go fucking berserk.
Im gonna try and study more, commit more time to my books if i ever want to pass my Diploma in Network and Security. I’ve decided to cut down my gaming time to study seriously, cause my results are depressing and i have to have strict changes if i ever want to improve. Sadly i wish i did this way way way earlier when i was still young/in the study zone.
Well if you’ve manage to read past all this crap, then congrats, you’ve just seen a side of me.
Any of you ever had this experiences as me or maybe was like me? Do post a comment about your experience in this subject. I’ll like to hear from people on how they solve this problem of mine instead of letting history repeat itself.
